Private Diary & Conclusions

“If you talk to God you’re religious. If God talks to you, you’re psychotic.” Dr. House

Date: 23.12.2015

The theory that Jesus did not die on the cross is not new to me, but was not important, since I was not very religious

HOWEVER, since few Months I changed my mind …
Last Friday my old friend * Josephine (name changed) invited me to drink a beer. She is a psychologist in a big hospital in the town.

I told her that I am schizophrenic and would like to spend a few weeks in the university hospital.
After she had looked at me for a moment skeptical, She nodded her head and said: Yes, yes If you need help, you can talk to me.” I said her: “No, thanks”

The problem with me is when I look the world and see so much dispute and war because of Religion, it makes me sickFor example, about the life of Jesus…

Why is it so hard to accept that Jesus had a family? Why people still believe the Noah’s Ark Story?

According with cientists, we have about  8.7 Million species on the Earth.  with 6.5 million species on land and 2.2 million in oceans. Now we multiplicate it 2 times (a pair). How many Noah´s Ark are necessary to Transport those animals. An adult tiger eats from 18 to 35 kilograms of food a day while elephants eat between 149 and 169 kg (330-375 lb.) of vegetation daily.


Another example: Lazarus. How many people were not being buried alive because their relatives believed that they were dead? Here a Reportage about: Buried alive

Please do not misunderstand me. I love Jesus today more than ever. But there are so many wrong interpretation

When I was very young, where I had constantly to read the Bible, I could not believe that Jesus really exist.
Many times during my prayers, I asked that I needed a proof of his existence.

After all, my family was multifaceted regarding religion, which they had their own Interpretation of the Bible.

At the end, they were all dead and no was right. Or maybe?

If so, who was it? My Catholic in mother, which died when I was  8 years old, my Protestant sister, who also died 2 years after my mother or my Spiritualist father when I was 14?

One day I dreamed that I was in Jerusalem, and it was the day the crucifixion, so at around 11 clock in the morning. It was a hot day and very bright.
I just could not
raise my head, I had to keep looking all the time to the floor. Then, a voice tells me that I was not worthy to see him.

Unfortunately, I do not know how old I was,  when this happen,  but I remember of each Detail.

The second time was in August this year.

I  was in a 40-60 m2 Room and it was also from 10.30 11.00 clock in the morning. There were  two small oak windows on the left side and on the right was the door. Jesus were in the center and next to him were many men who spoke loudly, accusing him. I was in a higher step, where I observe the whole Scene.

I started to cry. The only thing I could say was: They‘re going to kill him, and nobody do nothing against”. Then he looked at me mentally and said: It will be all in vain if you do not tell the truth“.

Yes, I know the truth, but I am very much misinterpreted. Even my friends do not believe me. And sometimes it is very frustrated.

I pray to God and Jesus to continue holding me, strengthening and take away from me all selfishness, pride and arrogance.

Thanks a lot for reading.

Cheers , miss Froggy